Numbers exchanged, adds on Facebook and promises that he won’t bang anyone else until he sees me (I want to believe this, but from what I’ve heard he’s a serial man-whore, so I doubt it.) We sneak off for a quick pash and then thats it, off I go.
We call and message for the next couple of days and I could feel myself closing off my emotions and pulling away a little bit, which is easier to do when he’s not around. I stress out easily and when he doesn’t message back I just close off completely to protect myself, I hate the feeling of not being wanted, and more so I was just waiting for a message telling me he was banging someone else (If he would be so kind).
One more phone call and I have the brilliant idea that Will should meet me in Sydney when I stop over there on the way back to Perth. I would change my flights and go earlier and we could “hang out” for the week there..So we lock it in and I was to look at flights the next day and let him know the plan.
Will messages me that he has butterflies (sorry for when you read this xx) I can’t help but think he is drunk or high again, as cute as it is, and all I have to say is “Im nervous and I worry that you say this to a lot of girls”. The message I get back convinces me even more that its a bad idea to give up anything for him. ” You are smart. But no.”
What the hell does that even mean?? “Yes I say that to everyone but don’t worry this time its different” or maybe ” Fuck you’re onto me but you’ll only really find out when I dump your ass for some other chick” or maybe he just really meant what he said..
Anyways I play this over in my head for the night and by the morning I really feel like I could easily take it or leave it. Will or no Will, Fuck it, I dont give a fuck. So I message him and let him know I won’t change my flights to meet him because I need to protect myself from him hurting me, so we can just see each other in Perth if we are both still interested by then…
I get bored quite easily..
Im off to the pub to catch up with some mates and get hammer drunk 🙂
Adventure Pussy xx